As I mentioned in my last post, I have recently had my AMH test to measure my egg reserve. For some reason I wasn't particularly worried about this. After all I had just had surgery and they didn't see anything that overly serious, and I'm only 30! Maybe I have fallen foul of everyone around me reminding me that I have age on my side. It wasn't like I had left trying for a baby until after my career...
Well, it seems that my body had an Ace up its sleeve! Guess what? I don't have many eggs left, my eggs are ageing faster than me.
I knew the news wasn't great when I called the clinic and they said that I needed to speak to the nurse and she would call me back. Then when she did, she went all round the houses explaining what the test did, how the levels were grouped etc and then she hit me with "...and you have low fertility". I felt the burning in my chest and my eyes. I waited for her to tell me that it was ok, that it was just below 'normal', but she didn't. She explained that I was in the lower half of the low band. So that the frick does that mean?
IVF is still going ahead, but our bill has gone up as I will need higher doses of stim meds. And it is only now I realise just how much these drugs cost. Would it be cheaper to get a crack habit?
To make matters worse, my tummy is still really sore. The swelling is going down, but it is still really tender. I ventured out in the car earlier to take DJ to nursery and I've been really uncomfortable all day since. I have to get through it because I have to get back to uni on Monday and that is an hours drive each way and sitting through hours of lectures.
I'm staying hopeful... What option do I have? I can feel the hormones kicking in. AF will be here in about a week. So I warn you, there may be tears for a while. BUT, as soon as AF has arrived, I'm becoming super focused on this cycle. SO take that IF!
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