Busy week

Hi all

I am so sorry I have neglected you this week.  It has been chaos with hubby having to have surgery on his lower back on Monday, and then me acting as nurse all week.  I've also managed to rearrange the living room, DJs play room and the kitchen!

Of course revision has been a bit hit and miss.  Mostly miss, but hey, I have another 4 weeks to go :(

Yesterday was the first day in a very long time that I actually felt 'normal'.  DJ and I went to the dentist in the morning.  He was super brave and got a 'Super Patient' sticker which he proudly showed to ANYONE that took a glance in his direction.

In the afternoon, I took DJ for his second introduction afternoon to his new big boy school.  It was the first time that I had left him there and I was a teeny bit nervous for him.  But as a proper little trooper that he is, he just kissed me good-bye and off he went playing.

I am so incredibly proud of how grown up he is becoming.  He is respectful and kind.  He is never too shy to give his Mummy a big cuddle and is the most loving little boy I could ever ask for.

After school we played in our new garden!  I actually hung washing out on the line for the first time this year yesterday!  Finally, instead of a heap of mud, we have a lawn, a path and a washing line!  There's some final touches to it next week, and there is still the future veggie patch project to take on, but we have a whole area to play.  We decided to eat our tea outside in the sunshine.  Literally the hour that I was out there I managed to get sunburnt!  What the...

Like I say, there was nothing special about yesterday as such, but it was filled with smiles and cuddles and happiness.  It was an old me day.

Just hoping that this is the start of things feeling better.

Thanks for being patient with me.

xxx

Day 6 - quick update

Today was my 6th down regulation injection, and it seems my left leg doesn't appreciate being stabbed every other day.  I think the problem is being right handed, but I have tried everything to get my left leg to co-operate like my right leg.  Out of the 3 occasions it has had to take it's turn, it has bled badly on 2 of them.  I know that I have probably managed to stab into a blood vessel (seriously, what are the odds?) but I would very much like it not to hurt.

I'm not bothered by the injections really.  I never thought I would be able to do this to myself - I used to pass out at the sight of a needle, never mind if it wasn't for me or not!  And I am definitely not moaning (well, maybe a little bit) because I am truly happy to be on this journey.  I know how lucky I am to be able to do this at all.

The side effects have started to kick in - the mood swings, the constant hunger, the tiredness, the insomnia.  Thankfully there haven't been any hot flushes yet.  The weather has been plenty warm enough without those to deal with too.  BUT I can honestly say that each time I have to fill the syringe with my Buserelin, each injection, makes me happy :)

xxx

Is this the turning point?

On Monday evening, I had some great news!  I have been selected to present my Summer research project to a conference in April!

I'm thrilled.  I know that the competition was tough, and I genuinely didn't think that I had a chance.  My tutor told me to submit my abstract as she thought it was a novel project, and would be of interest.  I was flattered at this, so to be selected (in the first stage of selection too!) was unbelievable.

I am using this as the well needed boost I need right now.  Until the nerves set in in a couple of weeks time when I start to write my presentation, I am just taking this as a great platform to change.

So yesterday, with this newly focused me, I went to my GP and demanded some pain relief for the pains which have been stopping me sleep for weeks.  They are getting worse and worse each day, so I decided that since we weren't in a cycle for at least a few months, I shouldn't allow myself to be a martyr to endometriosis!  They take a while to start working, but last night I got 4 hours solid sleep.  This is amazing for me and I'm hoping that the pains will start to ease over the week.

I also called the consultants secretary.  Unfortunately she wasn't at work (though her message said she works Tuesdays and there was no way of leaving a message for her to call me back).  This is a pet hate of mine.  I called LOTS yesterday to get the same message.  If you aren't there, leave a message to say so, or let me leave my details so you can call me back!

I also organised DJs follow consultation from his MRI for 23rd February.  Keeping my fingers crossed so hard for that.

Plus, I had a good work day at uni.

All in all, yesterday was a better day, and I'm staying hopeful that today can build on it.

My thought for today:  Gratitude opens your heart to happiness... So I am being grateful for the encouragement of my husband, my son and my tutor for their help this Summer, and the conference selection panel for having confidence in my work.