Last stim injection - done!

This morning was another trip to my clinic for a monitoring scan.  I was a little concerned about my biggest follie as I had felt a 'pop' on my left ovary on Thursday night, but everything is still going well.  The 18 follies are still growing well and I have some tiny ones that are trying to make a late appearance in the show.  But as it turns out, they won't have time to make it.  Because tonight is my last Gonal-F injection!

That means that this time tomorrow I will have injected my trigger shot and the 36 hour countdown to egg collection starts!!!!

I wasn't expecting this news.  I thought there would be another monitoring on Monday with egg collection probably Wednesday, but it seems that I am responding to the drugs better than before.

So this afternoon has been a flurry of organisation (this is me at my happiest - organising and being in control of something!).  Monday night we're spending a night in a hotel close to the clinic.  DJ is spending the night with MIL and FIL and they will pick us up from the hospital on Tuesday afternoon (since hubby can't drive).

I still know that there is a long way to go between egg collection and embryo transfer.  Especially with hubby being so poorly at the moment, we don't know whether we are going to have to resort to plan B and use our frozen swimmers (a reassuring back-up, but unknown territory for us).  But if we do manage to get good embryos, I think that transfer will be Friday.  So I've arranged DJ to spend the weekend with my parents.

I've managed to keep this a secret from everyone (apart from you, and my in-laws who have been the purse behind this adventure).  But I'm not sure how long I can keep this from my Mum.  I have planned how I will tell her when I get my BFP (which I'm optimistically focusing on) so I don't want to have to tell her before then.

So for now, I am concentrating on Tuesday.  Monday will be nice - my drug-free day!  The nerves are setting in but instead of worrying about all the potential problems with the cycle, I am focusing on getting that positive result.

I'm not sure timing is great though - my 2ww will end on DJs birthday and this is right in the middle of my exams.  In one way, this is excellent, whatever the result, I will be busy with other things.  But... Nah, I'm not thinking about that for now.  I'll have a whole 2 weeks to ponder about that.

My first Thankful Thursday and IVF update

Yesterday, last night and this morning saw me sadder than I have been for a while.  I had a massive fall out with hubby which forced us to face feelings that we had been hiding from for a while.  Everything is ok, but I think that the combination of drugs and back pain made me emotional, so when a discussion came up I just couldn't hide anywhere - there was nowhere to run.  Hubby has always been such a strong and supportive partner, and I know that the painful talks through the night have all been sorted.  I just need to hope I can carry on.  My emotions are low and my heart feels like it is breaking (I'm not even close to my 2 week wait yet!)

Anyway, after a short nap I realised that I have been a very poor blogger recently.  Uni exams are round the corner and revision is taking all my time.  But I have decided to write a weekly post - my Thankful Thursday (#thankfulthursday #TT).  I'm not sure if this is already on the circulation of Twitterverse, most likely.  But whatever, this is mine.

So each week I am going to write one thing that makes me grateful.  Since I am mid-cycle it will probably be IF related for a while, but let's see how this pans out.  So here goes for my 1st Thankful Thursday post...

Today, I am thankful for...Gonal-F!  I recently found out I have a poor egg reserve (low AMH) and this obviously filled me with the fears and worries about how well I would respond to the IVF stims this cycle.  Today I had my first monitoring scan and my ovaries are doing wonderfully - I have 12 follies on the right, and another 6 on the left!  That's 18 in total!!!!!

If I hadn't been laying down with wandy doing her business, I may have fallen off the table!

They're growing nicely too - some are already some good sizes.  I'm back to the clinic bright and early on Saturday for a second monitoring scan and bloodwork.  I'm keeping everything crossed that they continue to grow and blossom.

So there we are - Gonal-F you are working some magic in there, and for that I am very thankful.

I'd love to hear your Thankful Thursdays too!

xxxx

Today is a good day!

The Easter weekend has been filled with anxiety for today.  Today was my down reg scan and blood test, and also the day we found about which school DJ would be starting in September.

I had to get up early this morning for the drive to the clinic.  Because of the early start, hubby had to stay at home with DJ.  I don't mind - at the end of the day, a date with wandy and a needle is over pretty quickly and it's only the phone call that needs a team effort (well for me anyway).

I am thrilled the clinic phoned back so early.  The scan wasn't conclusive because my lining is the maximum they like it to be but my ovaries are behaving themselves and not doing much.  As she was probing around, she thinks I now have a cyst developing on the left ovary.  At least I'll have a matching pair and my tummy might not be so lob-sided (the eternal optimist ;) )

But with the bloods it all seems to be going ok!  I start stims on Thursday night.  I'm so flippin' excited!!!!

And as an added bonus, DJ has been offered a place at the local village primary school.  I am a little sad that he will not have any of his nursery friends start there with him, but he is a big boy who is very sociable, so I know he will be fine.  Well done sweetheart!  As happy as I am that he has his school place, it has made me realise that my little baby is growing up.  If someone could just slow his growth down for a while, I really want to enjoy him for a while longer.

:)