I can't lie...my heart is still broken.
I just can't seem to come to terms with the loss of our babies.
I have noticed though that I can cope better with my own feelings when I am away from Twitter and Facebook.
I have been away due to my revision and exams, and for the first time in a very long time, I haven't missed it. And when I logged onto to each, the tears just flowed.
Please don't judge me. But I just can't handle seeing my little sister's scan pics, my friends pregnancy updates and bump pics on Facebook. I can't cope with seeing my Tweeties start on their IVF cycles, knowing that I can't do the same.
From the bottom of my heart, I wish them all the best. I want everyone to know the love and joy of being a parent, especially those that have endured so much pain on the way.
I feel awful, but I need to protect myself. I need to stay away until I can come to terms with my own feelings.
I'm not sure how long this will take. I will still be blogging. I hope that this gives me the place to document my recovery from the depth of this heartbreak.
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